Weeeeeee haha!

*Jumps around in a happy mode!*
Working out does the body goooooooood. :) Black coffee's nice! And, love is awesome.
But losing someone you love kills tho. So I'd prefer to love the people who loves me :)


I'm sticking with diarist, because he won't hurt me. I hope?
I'm holding on to panda, because no matter what, he'll try his best to keep me safe.
I'm hanging out with my girls, because they curve a huge smile on my face!
I don't mind arguing with my family members, after all, they are a part of me.
I can't take people who tend to hurt me, so I'm just gonna let it be, smile, and just watch them run their lives.
I'm the one who made a mistake. So I deserve to have this.
I've made a lot of mistakes. A lot. a lot lot lot lot.
I want to be happy again! I wanna be meeeeeeeee.

If there was a right solution to this thing, it would be me telling myself 'NO'. Being the 'I think it'll be fine' girl that I am, it's as if I'm creating my own 'tsunami'. Okay whatever I just said. I'm blogging with pure coffee in my system okay. I love love love loooove coffee! I can live with coffee alone. In a day, without consuming any food. Will that work? Haha!

I had the sweetest sleep last night. A sleep without any dreams, oh my god, HEAVEN! I can't stand sleeping and having dreams, especially dreams which tends to jump from one story to another ! Don't you ever feel so exhausted when you dream? It's like you're doing you're daily routine as usual, but IN YOUR SLEEP! Sleeps are meant for us to rest our mind and body. Dreaming does not help! Dammit. Dreams which involves the guy of your dreams, that's a good dream, but it gives u false hope. Hahaha! Guys like that don't exist. *sigh* I'm only 15~ 15 15 15 15 15 15 15 15 ~ Wait till I'm. . . at LEAST 18. hahahaha!

Si Arizan bilang:
"Nanti lepas 20, kalau break, susah suda mau cari tu!"

Kimek.

HAHAHAHAHA! If laidat, no need lah. No need. No neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed. I want money. I love money. I must HAVE MONEY. Once I have money, I'll have my own Beemer, then I'll get my own house. I will live ALL ON MY OWN. Then next, my own GYM. Wait, that should come first since that's where I'll get the money to get my CAR and MY HOUSE. hahahahaha! :D Then then, okay and then wat? Sigh.

Dreams. DREAAMMMS DREAAMS DREAAAMS.

After all the dreaming and stuff, and once u got it, in the end you'll need an other half right? DAMN IT. Why am I trying so so so so soooo hard to push love away? Shooooooooo! =( It's because LOVE IS EVIL! LOVE IS WICKED. LOVE IS A WITCH! Buek. BUEEEKKKKK.

Cause two is better than one? Oh really? Why don't I believe in that anymore?
I seriously think I'm gonna grow 20 and still have no love. HAHAHAHA!
:D Strict oh saya kan?
I wonder who'll get my heart? I wonder who, and I wonder how?

Because. I don't want something that stays for a month ONLY and then THAT'S IT.
I want something that goes on for years, and if possible which lasts a lifetime. Why? Because, YES, I'm that old-fashioned girl. I want MY FAIRYTALE. Hahahahaha! I can't love one, and then move on to one. When I say 'I love you', I mean it. I think about it. I have a thought about it first. But when I said it, but then realize it's not worth it, that's when I know, IT'S A MISTAKE. I don't regret, I just feel stupid. I don't get angry, I just feel bad for myself. Haha. My luck's always like this. Sigghhh mengapakah?

"Bagus lagi saya bercerita sama si diary 24 jam sehari...... Ada faedah lagi. "

I'm not gonna be alone. Kenapalah teda this, or teda that. I don't need them. I want a permanent dose of happiness, not one that stays for a week or two, then it turns into something so bitter which leaves you crumbling. Haihhhh. I cannot believe I'm saying this, but I'm just gonna say it.

I don't believe in love anymore. Nuff said. =)

I'm capable of loving, but I'm not capable of believing it.

"Oh crap, KONEA KAMIN DOESN'T BELIEVE IN LOVE!"

hahahahahahaha!

Again, the caffeine's doing the blogging mind you. :P

I do not know how to face you. I don't know how to say it. I don't know what will I do. I may fall all over again or I may just walk pass by you. I have no idea what's gonna happen. I really have no idea. I do not know what's all this. This moment I'm having, it's MY reality check. It was a fantasy back when you were here, was just so perfect.
I got my wake up call.

"Haih, kicik2 pun mau bersinta. Budu. "
HAHAHAHA!

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------

What should I do today?

First and foremost:
Get my shower. HAHAHAHAHA! It's almost 10 and I'm still covered in sweat. Exercise bahhhh~

Then?
I'll be:
Cleaning the house. Too many dust bunnies.
Texting people. :D
Maybe blog again.
Facebook-ing.
Make lunch for myself.
Probably read some books.
Get myself some coffee. Or maybe not? Does coffee make you fat?
Then maybe I'll be clearing my room.
Eat chewing gum?
Hahaha!
Man I'm really bad in planning my daily routine. *sigh*

Evening, weight training.
WEIGHT TRAINING! ♥
Can't wait for the school holidays. Pagi, petang, malam, TRAIIINIIIINNGGGG!
Heaven. :)

Chow mochaaa~ :)